Outing with huiyun yesterday;

Cam-whored inside my room before meeting up with her. Heh~

Supposedly, we were to meet at 12noon. But i was very very tired and just couldnt jump out of bed. Imagine sleeping at 7am in the morning... So in the end, we meet each other at 2pm and set off for Changi Airport. We are going on a holiday to Japan ! cheh ! ~ Slacked around in the airport, looking at the aeroplanes taking off one by one and yet, we're still stucked here, in Singapore. Had Poppeyes (however you spell it) for lunch.

Left the airport during evening time and went back to Jp to meet my family. After having Pizza Hut for dinner, home sweet home for the exhausted elaine.

Recently, i'm having countless of sleepless nights. I just couldnt sleep well. I don't know why. So whenever i couldnt go to bed, i will switch on the com and watch MingZhong. Or even talk to myself. Bloody hell what's the problem with me?!! I know olevel's coming and i'm still slacking like nobody business. Yes, perhaps it's really nobody's business. Dots. Before going to bed every night, i will plan a 'timetable' for myself the next day. But nothing's done in the end. Whenever i flipped open the textbook to study, i'll have no motivation and i'll start to close my eyes, all the nonsense things will happen. I tell myself that i MUST persevere until the end of olevels. I really told myself that. But the effort and hardwork people sees me putting in seems otherwise. Everytime before going out, i'll take a look at the calendar. No matter how true the fact that OLEVELS COMING, i'll tell myself that there's still next week to start studying. Why will i ever have this kind of thinkings? Fuck these thinkings. SERIOUSLY. I'm starting to hate myself. I dont expect everything to be perfect, i just want everything to goes on smoothly for me. I just want to do well in my studies. But i feel like i'm just saying, but nothing's done in the end.

I feel that i'm such a failure.

Or perhaps, even worse than a failure?

Anyway, PRELIMS 'OVER'. Phew*... Like FINALLY. cheh ! Kaiyung and i went to Fish&Co. last Friday to celebrate this happy occasion. Yes, i guess we're both dreaming. hahaha. There's something i HAVE to say. Yap Kaiyung the MAD WOMAN went to call 5, FIVE extra servings of you know the butter spread on top of the fish, in just shortly 5minutes? She said it's super nice and she wants more. It's super funny luh and i couldnt stop laughing. ROFL...

Tan xiao pian yi de YE KAI YUNG ! =x She's gonna kill me if she sees this. Lol.