You always asked, why do i...

Sometimes, i just get so frustrated with myself when i'm not able to change the situation i'm in no matter what i do. The only thing i could do is to accept the fact how things were and try to face it. And when i had no choice but to face the facts of life was to me, i just feel so sorry for myself. And whenever i felt disappointed and couldnt put it into words, i can only express my feelings by being an emotional wreck, once again. I seriously hate this feeling for it really feels like my whole world being crushed. Like totally. Crushed.

But i'm glad i didnt lie about my feelings anymore. It felt really bad to feel so god damn disappointed about something yet act like nothing happen just for the sake of not going through tormentous (did i spelled it correctly? or is there even such a word?) moments like struggling to get everything back to normal.

Sometimes you just need someone to give in, and everything will turn out well. It's a lesson learnt.

Well, if you happen to see this, pretend you didnt.