It is not about letting go or not. At the very first place, i have never thought of leaving out the rest. We have never had any redundant troubles over minor things because letting nature takes it's course is the most important thing. However, for some people whom i used to treasure (believe it or not), you implied that we 'heck-care' you. But can you admit that you did not even once left us out? Do you even dare to do so?


Sometimes, i feel that you are just reading too deeply into it and let your imaginations run wild. Even the un-true things became true. This is a joke. What is the holy reason for purposely hiding it from you, going out ourselves just because we detest you? (that's what you yourself said, if you think it's true, then why not let it be? perhaps you'll feel happier for god-knows-the-reason?) But hey, detest is a very strong word to use. It is either insulting you, me or this 4 years of friendship. And hey for god's sake, we have better things to do. You can deny it and say that we are lying, but we are just being true to ourselves. You can say everything we do is to purposely ignore your existence. Yes, totally true. But what's with the picture of the 4 of you showing the hand gesture '4'. Why not 7? Isn't maoxian/united/7 as a whole the word you are always stressing on? No? The hand gesture '4' is not on purpose? Nice pose?


Also, we don't go around announcing in our blog how last minute the date is and 'oh i'm so sorry i did not ask you guys out, but will do so the next time. Promise!' Who knows whether it is on purpose or not? Of course i hope it's not. But then again, i'll never know. For now, i wouldn't even want to know. And if you think again, have we ever voice out our unhappiness over trival matters like this? We did not. Not because we didnt really care about us being left out, not that we are happy being left out, it's because we did not think in the way that you are leaving us out. We thought we can still be best-friends-forever afterall. And definitely not because we did not give a damn to whether we are being called out because we just don't give a damn to the friendship. But yes, from today onwards, we really won't. Otherwise perhaps maybe i got everything misunderstood?


But i still don't see why these people are even worth being friends with. 'Thank you' is a polite word to say, especially during times when there are already conflicts in the relationship. We don't beg for a reply. However, if you ever wanted to do so, why not end with a pleasant reply? Why make everyone unhappy by replying like as if you don't even give a damn to it. Yes, it may be true that you actually didnt spend a cent, spend a minute of your life, no i mean waste a minute of your life doing such silly things (is that what you mean?). But you are obviously showing that step cute attitude of yours and wants a quarrel.


As for the birthday celebration, you think it that way, then might as well let it be? There's no point explaining because i'm sick and tired of it and i don't see a need to do so. Things will still remain unchanged. Since you say that you have totally no wrong in this matter, come to think of it, yes it's quite true. So, let us be the one at fault. Sorry, i shall not say. But thanks is a must. This is the best present you had given our dear friend here, your best-ed friend you mean? I know you had been suffering all these days, months or in fact years, so after saying everything out, ending the whole friendship, you feel great? Well, i actually don't. I don't feel bad too. Believe it? I actually had no feelings at all. My feeling is dead. Best english. -oo-


For all that had happened all this years, there has to be a fullstop. You might never know this for the rest of your life. But what you actually said and did in the past will always be remembered by me because it's too deep a cut into my flesh. You will never know how much i cried just over the things you said. About my face and any other things. Sometimes, you may just be kidding. Once, twice, enough. You will never know your limit even after i started showing pissed off faces. Maybe to you, i had always been a jovial person, seen laughing the whole day and will never lose my temper towards you. Yes, i don't even have emotions. I told myself that i would confront you one day and ask for you to stop your nonsense but i did not in the end. The reason, friends. Even a friend who's not as close to me as you were cares more about me than you. Though it won't help because my face is just that worse, they recommended me cream and medicine that may help in some way. What about you? Commenting on me being famous because of my face? I know it's all meant to be a joke but is this what best friends are for? United? Showing concern?


I have always thought that we can be friends for life and did not ever once thought that our friendship could even last in such a lame way. Since you chose to give this 4 years of friendship up, i don't even see why the 1% of faith and hope is meaningful. Rip it off please.


Once again, it is not about letting go, holding and clinging onto this fragile friendship when no one even understand us, because the friendship is already gone when the trust is not there.


I'm sorry you might really hate me after reading this post but i'm thankful at the very least i leave some memories in you.













Enough of this very very gloomy-atmosphere post. Shall blog about happier stuffs.




Saturday;

K-box with tanny and jiayan. Cam-whored with tanny while jiayan was singing her ugly zhang dong liang's song. Hahaha. Video-ed a damn hilarious thing tanny and i did. Shall upload here if i ever had the time. Tanny is gonna kill meeeeeeee!

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Sunday;

K-box with mousey.

Self-loving when mousey's singing his AH-DU song. Hahahaha!

Pool-ed after that. Kena forced by this damn mousey again. Played 3 games, lose 3 games! Fishhhhhhhhhhh! But only lose 1-2 balls, still not so bad. Hahaha i swear i'll win him one day! And the one day will never arrive. Boooooooooooooooo -oo-